Christmas Eve…. DEATH!

This year I’m being forced to hosting my mother-in-law (MIL) and brother-in-law’s (BIL) family. Which wouldn’t be too bad if mother-in-law and sister-in-law’s (SIL) knocked-up daughter weren’t by default invited. I hate my husband’s family. The only sane ones in the bad bunch (immediate – from his mother’s side) are BIL and his daughters. Unfortunately, when MIL left father-in-law (FIL), she moved in with BIL and he hasn’t been able to get rid of her since.

Now I’m not one of those high-morality “don’t get pregnant until marriage” kind of people. But her mother is such a slut that both kids don’t know who their real fathers are, and her mom apparently slept with both the guy they were brought up believing was their father, and his son! Who is supposedly the daughter’s possible father. SIL is a straight up SLUT and I don’t like anyone from her own family. Nobody was raided right out of any of them, but can you be surprised, really?

So They normally do Christmas Eve crap (Like opening presents early, WTF?) at BIL and MIL’s house. But they had a fire and the house is black and smells like smoke.. So apparently that volunteers my house for them to ransack on Christmas Eve. I normally like to have a nice quiet peaceful Christmas as far away as humanly possible from these people. When it comes time for the Holiday season, I try to go to my parents’ houses. 

It’s just once, A. You can live through one night of hell with these psychos….

If SIL shows up, nobody is invited at all and they can all go suck it.
And no, not just because she’s a whore. She had the audacity when my son was born to grab a 2 day old baby out of my arms, pass him around the room, and tell him that he wasn’t my baby, but “theirs”. Which I won’t get into the details now, but the bitch isn’t even allowed to know where we live.

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We All Hate Hospitals….But(explicit)

But sometimes they are a necessary evil… Or not? I don’t know.

Every-time I take someone to the hospital it ends up being a waste of time and money. Which I guess is one reason to be glad to be dirt-poor, we don’t have to pay for it! It’s ridiculous that you’re forced to stay or else the state will take your kids away, even after tests return negative – “just in case“.

O-M-G, people, please don’t ever tell anyone in the emergency room that you don’t vaccinate. Everything becomes “because you don’t vaccinate….” Yeah, bitch, because I didn’t do years of research and THEN make the decision not to vax. My baby isn’t even old enough for the vaccine you’re whining about so it wouldn’t make a difference if I DID!

*Note to retarded self-righteous wannabe-doctors(not an MD): Don’t try scaring a non-vaxing parent, usually we know more about the vaccine than you because we don’t get paid by the big pharma company and we don’t only read the company-given pamphlets telling, “Why you need this.” Including complete lists of ingredients, side-effects, long-term effects, and other shit they don’t want you to know and the FDA doesn’t require to be told to the public because the government wants to fuck us over! I’ve done the research and the risks completely overshadow and outweigh the supposed “benefits”. Also, stop being so fucking snoody and “tsk-tsking” other peoples’ God(or self, if you don’t believe in a God)-given parental choices. I don’t for a second wonder why there are posters all around ER saying “It’s a felony to harm a medical worker.” YOUR DUMB ASS NEEDS PUNCHED IN THE FACE!
By the way, you tortured my child for nothing, CUNT.*

I would like to thank the actual doctors and nurses outside of the ER for being ultra kind, considerate, understanding, helpful, caring, and all-around NICE… And making our 48-hour stay bearable.
Well, besides the doctor on the first day and the nurse on the first night, I could have totally done without them. But Ben, Helena, Vicki, Sarah, and Scott were super awesome!

Regarding CPS’ use as complete OVERKILL in everyday society in America:
It’s complete BULLSHIT that parents are bullied into receiving medical care and unwanted advice at the threat of having our children taken away. The government needs to get its ass in check, we own you, not the other way around! Save CPS resources for people actually posing a threat to children, like the abusers that you allow to keep their children and beat the shit out of them while doing drugs.

First we were told that we could go home when the test results came back negative for everything. Then we were told to stay in the hospital for 2 days while the cultures are tested. Now my baby cries every-time she poops or sits because she was given antibiotics and disposable-diapers after knowing her tests were negative with only a 20% chance of becoming positive in the next 48-hours. You’re not allowed to remind them of what they first said or CPS get called. Unless a doctor is specifically saying, “the baby will die or get worse.” I don’t think you have the right to say a person is neglecting their child or putting them in danger. Nobody knows their babies like parents, and the body is this magical thing that has done it’s own medical care for thousands of years without “professionals”.
I’m not pissed about the stay because I was expecting it. But had it been a “oh shit” kind of hospital run and test came out fine but we were incarcerated anyways? Yeah I’d have been fucking pissed, because once you step foot in a hospital – you lose all of your human rights and become a prisoner until you’re allowed to leave.
Or else you get your family taken from you. Which is the main reason I hate hospitals. Besides the fact that the medical “professionals” are mainly stuck-up, snoody, brown-nosers who think they shit gold bricks. Luckily on this trip we actually got really good care and only the ER people were worthless pieces of shit.

Banner Cardon Children’s – Mesa
I think you rate my best hospital stay EVER: 6/10 *****

It would have been 10 if it weren’t for your shitty ER staff!… and those first night people.

I’m just glad to be home with my poor unnecessarily diaper-rashed baby who is otherwise in perfect health. ❤

Finally Did It! (Explicit language)

I sent my friend a text message yesterday saying that after this week I won’t watch her kids anymore.

However, I don’t think she took me very seriously seeing as how she reminded me tonight that starting next week she’ll no longer have Tuesdays off of work. *facepalm*
Her little brats were worse than ever, even after her threatening them before she left for work this morning. What kind of children destroy an entire string of Christmas lights by ripping off the bulbs or smashing them to bits!? Needless to say, we can no longer go in our own backyard barefoot anymore! I fucking hate them. Not to mention, that shit costs money! I don’t even feed the little fuckers anymore because they ate all of the food their mom brought over, and I refuse to feed them my food or else we’ll have a completely empty fridge like last week. Depressing.

Nothing to make you completely hate children that aren’t yours than by watching other peoples’ little brats.

Right?

*Sigh*

If she shows up at my door next Monday, I’m not going to answer the fucking door….Yeah right.

I hate being such a pussy ass doormat.

Finding a Decent Place For Kids

My biggest obsession since I got pregnant with S five years ago has been stalking the Realtor website for affordable houses. By affordable, I mean we can basically only afford something in the $50-80k range. However, anything is better than wasting money renting a place, right? Last year we almost finally moved, found really nice places with up to 5 bedrooms that we could afford, then we found out there are absolutely no jobs. Scratch that dream.

I refuse to raise my kids in the city. In this city? EFF THAT! I’ve never lived anywhere in this entire Valley (in 4 different cities down here), where gunshots weren’t a normal phenomenon. I’m paranoid to let my son in my yard (with its 6ft wooden fence) for fear of one of those “pop-pop” sounds killing him randomly.

The ghetto was cool when I was a small town teenager that moved to the big city. As a parent?
I will die before my kids have to be raised here.

So now I’m thinking of us moving into my mom’s house for a year or two to be able to save up some money to buy a house. She lives in a small town up north where it’s not as hot. O really likes it up there for the historic district and all that. I have bills to pay with the 2013 tax refund, then put the remainder in savings, and with the 2014 tax refund we should have enough for a decent down payment. So we can move to Idaho or Oregon or wherever. I really would love to be able to buy my uncle’s “farm” in Idaho where I spent a few years of my childhood, and multiple holidays, but it doesn’t seem like my mother is ever going to ask him about the possibility of us buying it from him. Lord knows that would be easier!
But there is always the issue of finding a job. O is a cook, he can literally work anywhere, at least he could in a place that actually has a good food presence, where food-related jobs are readily available… Which is the issue we had with buying the house earlier this year, no restaurants equals NO JOBS. Where there were jobs, there were no houses! It gets me to be super hopeless.

 

So maybe this next year will finally be the year when I get my family out of this hell-hole. Even if it means living with my mother until we can afford to move somewhere we can all be safe and happy.

How hard is it? All I want is an affordable 3 bedroom, 2-3 bath home in a smallish town, with jobs and good schools.

I really hate living in America. But if you’ve ever actually looked into it, there’s nowhere else that allows us to get citizenship, except Ecuador. And believe me, I’ve looked into it. Maybe I should just save our money and move there!